5 Quotes + Tips That Get Me Through Bad Days

 I am the one thing in life I can control. — Hamilton (Musical) The following line is equally good — “I am inimitable / I am an original” — but this is the one I find most helpful. You will never be able to control other people’s actions. You will never be able to control…

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Help, I’ve Relapsed And I Can’t Get Up!

I had an anxiety attack last night.  A big, long anxiety attack that arrived the moment I thought someone was upset with me, and stayed long after they apologized, everything was talked over, and it was all resolved.  It’s still hanging on a bit this morning, actually, like a sloth that’s latched its claws around…

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I’m Sick. Yay!

Today, I am sick.  But like, temporarily sick.  Which, for a chronically ill person, can actually be just a little bit fun.  At least, for me it is.  Is it fun for anyone besides me?  Not actually sure.  I’m just gonna keep going. Yeah, having a cold or the flu or whatever sucks, but people…

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Accomplishments and Chronic Illness

There are many times when I am told about someone’s life — what they’re doing, what they’ve done, their plans for the future — and, be it family member, friend, or complete stranger, I get absolutely sick with jealousy.  Like, actual jealousy, not envy, and that’s even worse.  Somehow, when I hear about other people’s accomplishments, I feel like they’re taking away my own.

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When Driving in Fog — Poem

I can feel it seeping in through my ears, swirling around my mind, threatening to coat my eyes. “When driving in fog, do not turn on high beams.” But the lever is right there; light is right there! “They will only reflect off the fog and make it harder to see. Stay on low beams…

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Idols/Favorite Authors — Poem

I build a home in your words Sink into the comfy armchair of your thoughts Prop up one of your pages, a mirror in which to do my morning makeup I strap on your sentences, ready to face the world With your paragraphs in my pockets, I am safe They are not a helmet or…

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Rifts

As evident from my previous post, I am trying this new thing of actually using my blog like a blog.  E.g., posting things that are just life updates or inconclusive thoughts, and hoping that somehow they might actually serve some kind of purpose. This one’s about rifts politely ripping open between family members.    …

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Breakdowns, Guts, and Snot

I am reading Secrets for the Mad: Obsessions, Confessions and Life Lessons by dodie.  It is, among other things, very very much about mental health.  My Grandpa asks me what I’m reading, so I show him the cover. “Are you mad?” he jokes, and I smile. Yes.  By your standards, I am absolutely mad.    …

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